How are you my dear readers?
I'm still breathing. We are still breathing. Let us strive to improve ourselves to be better each day everyday. Everyday is a new chapter. Begin with Bismillah, take a deep breath and start again. The mistakes from yesterday are the lessons that we learned. Absorb the energy. Remove the negative words or actions and decide for a beautiful beginning. In the end of the day, don't forget to say Alhamdulillah even though that day doesn't seem to be the way we wanted to be but we should be proud of ourselves because we can manage to get through the rough day of our lives.
Everyone sure have their own story. I have mine.
The story begins when I entered University Putra Malaysia taking degree in Mathematics. Seriously, I was so excited to be in here. After all Mathematics is my favorite subject and may be because the teachers are really helpful and caring. I always score Mathematics during school. That makes me eager to continue my studies in Mathematics.
University life? It is not like I imagine.
It takes me two years to adapt my life here with friends and studies. Two years? Yes, two years. Don't be surprised. I don't know why, but it is surely difficult for me. In a week, there will be tears falling from my eyes. I can't handle my emotions right. I always get tensed. I always wanted to give up but when I think about both of my parents I become stronger to finish my studies here. To continue what I have started.
Of course my grades are not that good. You can say it's below 3.00.
My lecturer have one said, "Which one will you choose? Do you want to graduate with 3.00 pointer above or the person who just graduate only to finish his degree with 3.00 pointer below? If you have to choose, which one will it be?"
I just spoken in my mind, I want to graduate with 3.00 pointer above and to make my degree to be meaningful and of course to make my parents proud of me when I walk to get my certificate. I imagine that moment, when I wear my convocation robe. Then I suddenly realized, why should I waste my time taking this degree if I just graduate with 3.00 pointer below? What's the meaning if I take this degree if it is not something to be proud of?
My lecturer continues and said, "I'm sure everyone wants to graduate with 3.00 pointer above. I'm not sure what are your current pointer now. For those who still get 3.00 pointer above, congratulations and keep it up. But for those who didn't, try harder. You can extend your studies so that your pointer is 3.00 pointer above".
Now, I'm trying harder to get my pointer up again. I have failed a few subjects before. Since the subjects I failed has a condition for other subjects, my studies are way back from my friends. Sometimes, I have to face problems such as subjects that I want to take clash with other subjects, subjects I want to take is not open for next semester and others. It sure plays with my emotion. Now, I am a third year student. Next semester, is my final year. There are still a lot of subjects I haven't taken because of these problems so I think I have to extend my studies. But I really don't mind now. What is even important, this degree is something that I can be proud of and I want it to be my precious achievement in years. Insya Allah.
What even weird is my repeated subjects are better than before. I've got an A for each subject I repeat. I wonder, why couldn't I get an A when I first took this subjects. Why when I take these subjects for the second time, I understand more and my grades are good? That's really confusing for me right now.
I am really thankful, because of this situation I have become more stronger. Sometimes, I got tangled with my emotions but after crying it makes me feel better. I have learned a lot from it. It is surely a valuable experience. More over, I've got many new friends. That excites me the most. Pray for me my friends, so that my studies are going well. InsyaAllah. Amin.
"Allah merahsiakan masa depan, untuk menguji kita agar senantiasa berprasangka baik, merencana dengan baik, berusaha yang terbaik serta bersyukur dan bersabar".
I hope this post will give inspiration to others. Do not ever give up. Be strong. Everything is possible to achieve. Always keep our faith and pray to Allah so that our efforts are worth. InsyaAllah.
Thanks for reading.