Sometimes life is not like the way we plan~

Assalammualaikum.

How are you my dear readers? 

I'm still breathing. We are still breathing. Let us strive to improve ourselves to be better each day everyday. Everyday is a new chapter. Begin with Bismillah, take a deep breath and start again. The mistakes from yesterday are the lessons that we learned. Absorb the energy. Remove the negative words or actions and decide for a beautiful beginning. In the end of the day, don't forget to say Alhamdulillah even though that day doesn't seem to be the way we wanted to be but we should be proud of ourselves because we can manage to get through the rough day of our lives.

Everyone sure have their own story. I have mine.

The story begins when I entered University Putra Malaysia taking degree in Mathematics. Seriously, I was so excited to be in here. After all Mathematics is my favorite subject and may be because the teachers are really helpful and caring. I always score Mathematics during school. That makes me eager to continue my studies in Mathematics.

University life? It is not like I imagine.

It takes me two years to adapt my life here with friends and studies. Two years? Yes, two years. Don't be surprised. I don't know why, but it is surely difficult for me. In a week, there will be tears falling from my eyes. I can't handle my emotions right. I always get tensed. I always wanted to give up but when I think about both of my parents I become stronger to finish my studies here. To continue what I have started.

Of course my grades are not that good. You can say it's below 3.00.

My lecturer have one said, "Which one will you choose? Do you want to graduate with 3.00 pointer above or the person who just graduate only to finish his degree with 3.00 pointer below? If you have to choose, which one will it be?"

I just spoken in my mind, I want to graduate with 3.00 pointer above and to make my degree to be meaningful and of course to make my parents proud of me when I walk to get my certificate. I imagine that moment, when I wear my convocation robe. Then I suddenly realized, why should I waste my time taking this degree if I just graduate with 3.00 pointer below? What's the meaning if I take this degree if it is not something to be proud of?

My lecturer continues and said, "I'm sure everyone wants to graduate with 3.00 pointer above. I'm not sure what are your current pointer now. For those who still get 3.00 pointer above, congratulations and keep it up. But for those who didn't, try harder. You can extend your studies so that your pointer is 3.00 pointer above".

Now, I'm trying harder to get my pointer up again. I have failed a few subjects before. Since the subjects I failed has a condition for other subjects, my studies are way back from my friends. Sometimes, I have to face problems such as subjects that I want to take clash with other subjects, subjects I want to take is not open for next semester and others. It sure plays with my emotion. Now, I am a third year student. Next semester, is my final year. There are still a lot of subjects I haven't taken because of these problems so I think I have to extend my studies. But I really don't mind now. What is even important, this degree is something that I can be proud of and I want it to be my precious achievement in years. Insya Allah.

What even weird is my repeated subjects are better than before. I've got an A for each subject I repeat. I wonder, why couldn't I get an A when I first took this subjects. Why when I take these subjects for the second time, I understand more and my grades are good? That's really confusing for me right now. 

I am really thankful, because of this situation I have become more stronger. Sometimes, I got tangled with my emotions but after crying it makes me feel better. I have learned a lot from it. It is surely a valuable experience. More over, I've got many new friends. That excites me the most. Pray for me my friends, so that my studies are going well. InsyaAllah. Amin. 

"Allah merahsiakan masa depan, untuk menguji kita agar senantiasa berprasangka baik, merencana dengan baik, berusaha yang terbaik serta bersyukur dan bersabar".

I hope this post will give inspiration to others. Do not ever give up. Be strong. Everything is possible to achieve. Always keep our faith and pray to Allah so that our efforts are worth. InsyaAllah.

Thanks for reading.

:)

Ini kisah homesick saya ^^

Assalammualaikum.

Pembaca-pembaca yang dirindui sekalian, apa khabar? Moga dalam keadaan sihat hendaknya. Adinda di sini juga sihat, alhamdulillah. Akhirnya, blog adinda selamat ditaip dan publish. What am I babbling about? It's like I'm writing a love letter. ^^ Now I am surely busy with assignments. Feels like assignment is my boyfriend. Everyday I have to meet him and I really enjoy that. #sighs. I don't want to see him right now. I'm not happy. I want to break up with him. Haha. Just kidding. Assignments and student life cannot be separated. Sometimes, I hated it. Sometimes I get headaches but that's a student life! Sometimes I even don't know what to do if I have no assignments. #Ayat poyo.

Right now it's time for me to update my blog. It's been awhile. Miss me? ^^

Nope? Okay fine.

Since my parents move to Penang, my dad always have to go out station. So I haven't seen them for two weeks. TWO WEEKS people. Seriously, I miss them so badly!

"Eleh, baru dua minngu tak balik. Aku ni dah berbulan-bulan tak balik. Lagi rindu."

Ee,siapa kata macam tu? I know that. I really know my friends. But for me, it's a different situation. Since I was little, I have never been separated from them. That's why. I get to enter a boarding school but my father rejects it. He says I'm still little to go out there by myself. Mana tak jadi manja anak-anaknya. ><

After SPM I study at Kedah Matriculation College. Memang homesick dan memang tak sah kalau mata ini tidak berendam dengan air mata. My dad sanggup drive jauh-jauh ambil Yana di Kedah dan hantar Yana balik semula ke Kedah after my holidays come to an end. Last day at home, I started to feel like crying tapi Yana still dapat tahan dari menangis. When we arrive at Kedah, my tears suddenly burst out by itself. I will wait for them and stood there until the car is gone from my sight. Kelakar je bila ingat. They don't want me to take the bus. Haha. Untungkan?

Sekarang ni pun sama. Abah datang ambil Yana di UPM.

Terharu rasanya.

We all grown up now mum and dad. Time sure speeds up fast. I think it was just yesterday I play with my own toys. But now, I am a big girl now. They always say that we are still their responsibility until we get marry. Then, their responsibility will move to our husbands. Ouh, hearing that makes me feel like,
"No I don't want to separate from both of you. Please don't give us away. Please!"

So dear husband, please take good care of me like my parents do. XD

I will always pray supaya emak dan abah sentiasa sihat. Dan kemana jua abah dan emak pergi, semoga perjalanan mereka selamat sampai pergi dan balik.

Jom kita doakan untuk kedua-dua ibu bapa kita.

بِسۡمِ ٱللهِ ٱلرَّحۡمَـٰنِ ٱلرَّحِيمِ

Ya Allah! Ampunilah bagiku segala dosaku dan juga dosa kedua ibu bapaku dan kasihanilah mereka keduanya sebagaimana mereka memelihara dan mendidikku di masa kecil.

Amin. Amin. Amin.

Klah, perlu sambung dating dengan Encik assignment.

Thanks for reading ^ ^

Take care my dear readers.
:)

p/s~Kita akan kumpul ramai-ramai 30/4 hingga 5/5 ni. Just wait! Keinginan untuk balik rumah semakin membuak-buak. Sabar eh Yana. ^_^ Love you both mum and dad. <3 <3

AWKWARD tapi seronok!

Assalammualaikum.

Er.. Hello.

Hello..

Anybody?

Mesti dah tidur masing-masing ni.

Actually, hati ini masih berbunga-bunga. Masih excited yang tak dapat digambarkan dengan kata-kata like solving mathematics still get an answer math error, math error. Argh, geram kenapa dapat math error? Rasa nak hempuk-hempuk. Complicated untuk solve perasaan aku sekarang. GEMBIRA tahap infinity. Sementara cerita ini masih hot dan segar di ingatan, ana nak abadikan kenangan tu di sini.

Ok, apa yang berlaku sebenarnya?

Sebenarnya... Sebenarnya... 

Ana kena pergi temu duga.

Temu duga apa?

Temu duga dengan his parents.

@_@

Hati ini rasa sangat berdebar-debar. Feels that my heart is going to explode. Rasa tak senang duduk. Seram sejuk rasa tangan ni. 

What am I going to talk?

Sebelum jumpa, jenuh memerah otak untuk generate soalan-soalan yang bernas untuk ditanya.

"Alamak, kereta dah sampai. Be cool Yana. Relax."

Suasana dalam kereta tu tak sunyi. Mujur his parents okay, and likes to talk. Alhamdulillah, selamat. ^^

We went to Mid Valley. His father yang drive kereta tu. Sampai Mid Valley, kami pergi makan. Too akward that I didn't realize what the shop's name. But the food's there are delicious. Ana makan Nasi Lemak Rendang Tok. Best! Delicious.

Then, after Zohor prayer. We went and watch a movie. The movie is called "Broken City". 

Disebabkan tidur pukul 4 pagi semalam, jenuh mata ini menahan mengantuk sebab nak tahu ending cerita ni. The movie is moderately enjoyable. So I give this movie 3 out of 5 star. >< Reminder, this movie is for 18 years above. Part paling seronok, bila the woman at the ticket counter thought I'm under 18. Mudanya aku! So I have to show my IC. May be I look like his younger sister. Ngehehee.

After the movie, I went along to their home. Her mum ajak makan dinner. Lepas asar, turunlah ke dapur. Konon nak tunjuk kepakaran memasaklah. But, thruthfully I'm not that good. Haha. Yang paling segan, when his father tanya macam ni.

" Lynn pandai masak ke?" (Lynn is what they call me)

Gulp. Telan air liur.

"Er.. Er.. Tak pandai sangat uncle. Tahu sikit-sikit je. Setakat nak tolong-tolong kat dapur tu bolehlah."

"Kena tahu banyak-banyak. Tak boleh tahu sikit-sikit."

Haha. His mum and I just laugh.

Insya Allah uncle. I will be good at cooking one day. Hihihi. You know, his father pandai masak. Sangat awesome kan? Kan best if he knows how to cook like his father. Hehe.

Kami makan yong tau foo. Sedap uncle masak. Me and his mum pun tolong jugak. Seronok masak ramai-ramai. Feels like ada bonding. It makes us more closer. Si dia pula, buat air Ribena. Ok, sedap! Pass. Ececece. XD

Then, after solat Maghrib Ana pulang semula ke kolej.

Can't wait to go out with them again to Aquaria in June. InsyaAllah.

Seronok dating bila ada parents. Feels like someone taking care of us. Duduk dalam wayang pun, his parents ada kat sebelah. Tak rasa terkongkong pun. Just rasa bertuah sebab when a man ajak jumpa parents dia, it means his serious about our relationship and shows his sincerity that he truly loves us. Ana tak couple dengan dia, we're just friends for now and kami pun dah lama sangat tak jumpa. Bila dia ajak jumpa with his parents pula tu, mula-mula tu rasa takut but why not. With parents lagi okay dari dating berdua kan?

Semoga dia adalah jodoh ana. InsyaAllah.

Okay, that's now from me. This entry is publish at 2.15 am. It's time to sleep. Thanks for reading. Goodnight. :)

p/s~~>Entry tak ada gambar. Segan nak ambil. XD